Ground Zero...Again

I have struggled for most of my adult life with staying on track when it comes to financial goals. I have tried and failed to break away from debt more times than  can possibly count. I have come so close, and then given up. Time and time again I repeat these patterns, and every year, I swear it's going to be different.
I think this is usually triggered by filing my taxes and realizing that I actually made a decent amount of money...and where on earth did it go??? I don't know how to make it different, but I'm not going to give up. I'm going to keep getting up and remaking up ground lost due to debt fatigue (is that even a thing?).

This is actually going to be the first time I see these numbers (at least in a while). I have been avoiding them, actually.

Please note that every single one of my credit cards have also been maxed out. Spending has always been my main means of dealing with my anxiety (which is a different conversation). At the heart of this, I have a lot to work on!

Radiology    50/50
Fines          100/100
Old cable bill  200/200
Hospital    339/339
CC1            300/300

CC2              800/800

CC3             2250/2250

CC4               3000/ 3000

School (mine) 5245/6000

School (hub)      8,800  /17400

Van                    13,000/21,000

House               97,000/99,000

For a grand total of